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It has been busy these days.

Well, I had been in Edinburgh for 2 monthes last summer.  It was so nice city to stay!  I love Edinburgh.

And I got a new job in December.
(So I have been so busy.)

And, I had a broken heart in October.(or November? I don't know exactly)
It made me so sick. I know I was so childish! lol
But he really seemed to like me, and I believed in his words.

I like you a lot.
I like you a lot, too!

(It is so happy memory, but it is a little bitter.)

It was really sad, but no-one make anyone love her/him.
They have their minds as I have the one.

To like someone is so interesting and make me so happy,  but sometimes it can make me almost destroyed.
Now I'm afraid to like someome too much.
A few happy monthes, then deadly sad monthes.

I had thought the same thing for almost 10 years, and I carefully avoided to give my mind to someone.
I had had a nice boyfriend then, but I never did. He was so nice person and I trusted and liked him,  but I knew he was not the right man for me.  Because I liked him as if he was my father or brother.

But I finally did it.
And I was broken.

Well, you say why did I do such a stupid thing?  Even I knew I should not do so.
Hmm, I don't know.  But I thought 'I finally found him'. Somehow, I felt so then.

It sounds so stupid for you, I know.
I myself feel so :)  It was so foolish and stupid for my age.

 

Anyway, I think I'm happy.
I can laugh, joke, see something beautiful, go to shop and buy cute clothes.
I think it would be perfect if I had a boyfriend now, but I know not everyone spend a perfect life.
Perfection not always needs for everyone to be happy. Maybe.

 

But I hope someday I would like to find a person for me.
Someday, before I die.